Now that I have had a chance to breathe and look back at this semester of Dance Show, it’s crazy to believe that it is all over. This semester was different than last semester. I faced new challenges and my dance really evolved from originally going to be a jazz piece to a more modern/ballet piece. I also had less time than ever before in Dance Show history to make this dance. Looking back on it now, I’m extremely proud of what I have accomplished. I made a 7 minute dance in 4 weeks after having to restart multiple times throughout the semester. And it turned out better than I have ever expected. I have gotten SO many compliments on my piece. From my friends, acquaintances, and people I have never met before. Some have told me that it was their favorite piece of the show or that my message resonated with them and pulled at their emotions. While all of those words were amazing to hear, this piece was about more than just attention from others. I had to get my feelings out and I was able to through dance.
This semester has been extremely difficult in the way that I have been put down many times and my confidence was starting to crumble. I have never had a problem with confidence before, but this semester I had problems finding my worth. The only way I kept going was by the support of my friends, family and especially my boyfriend. Without them, I would have crumbled. My piece was really dedicated to them because I owe them for keeping me going when I wanted to give up or catching me every time I broke down. There are special people that come into our lives at different moments and keep us going. Some of them are there just for a moment and other ones decide to stick around. One act of kindness can have a huge impact on someone’s life. This semester I have been shown simple acts of kindness through all of my dark times that have brightened my spirits and have given me hope to persevere through anything. So my dance was about someone being broken down until others came into her life and lifted her back up until she could stand on her own.
This dance was extremely important to me and I’m thankful that my dancers worked hard to make it amazing. I’m happy that they all support me and having them attack me with hugs after our last show was a great because in one way it was worth all of the trouble. I know I’m taking a break from choreography, but I am proud of my work. I love dance and it is one of the few ways that I can truly express myself.
So after all of the stress, long nights and breakdowns from time to time, this is my piece. Last night was opening night and everyone loved it. They were screaming and clapping so much and it truly felt amazing to know that all of the work meant something not just for me but for other people too.
This piece is so special for more than just the fact that it is my first maturely choreographed piece. It is a piece that represents my relationship.Coming to a school almost 4 hours away from home and having my boyfriend back home has not been easy in the slightest. I miss him every single day and I count down the days until I see him again. The piece shows, through a partially abstract way, the hardships that we have both faced in our relationship and how forces constantly pull us together and push us apart. But in the end there is always a way back to each other. All obstacles are demolished because love can break any barrier. And though I know this sounds cheesy, it is true for me. This piece is literally a part of me shown onstage.
I also wanted to have the influence of my boyfriend throughout this piece because he has had such a huge impact on my life. He is the whole reason that I even decided to take choreography. His constant love and support is truly a blessing. I wouldn’t have had the courage to even try to choreograph without his constant reminding that there is so much more to me than I can see sometimes. Dance enables me to show things that I can’t always find the words to say. That is why I have put so much time and work into this piece to make it as perfect as I could because I wanted it to be perfect for him. He has absolutely inspired this piece and the fact that I am using the music that he found makes the dance even more special to me. The music he found just by my explaining of what I wanted fit perfectly. He knew exactly what I was thinking. I wanted his input put into the piece and though I know he will say that he didn’t do anything, love and support lead to beautiful things. There would be no piece without him. My piece, “A Tender Thing” (which refers to a Shakespeare quote about love) is dedicated to the one person that has always supported me and loved me unconditionally, Ryan. I love you and I really hope you enjoy the piece when you come to see it.
It is literally the best feeling in the world when a your piece is finally done and the parts that you have been working on for so long to get just right finally come together. I’M SO HAPPY!!!!! And my dance professor said it was magnificent! AND the two seniors that have been constantly critiquing it even told me it was great. A senior who was my choreographer last year, told me that I did a great job and told me she loved it too. I’m just so happy that I could finally take control of my piece after jumping over so many hurdles. FINALLY!!!! It feels awesome knowing that I have been able to prove myself worthy as a choreographer and a dancer in a more mature piece. I may be a quiet person, but I believe that I am a force to be reckon with when I do something I love.
Today, I had to take my dance midterm in class. Usually I get so nervous when I have to dance for tests because they are filmed, but this time there weren’t any nerves. I feel like I’m getting more confident in my dancing abilities each day. I know I’m getting better and it feels wonderful. When I was dancing for my midterm, my professor told me I was “gorgeous”. She told me that my body lines were perfect and proceeded to bring it up multiple times in class. She even said again in class, while we were watching a tape of a professional ballet company, “That’s you, Lydia” as one of the dancers did a move similar to that in the midterm. I couldn’t help but smile. I just had so much fun dancing the different dances today and my heart was in it. I know I shouldn’t need others’ approval, but it really was an honor to be called “gorgeous” by my professor. I know I’m on the right track now and I am just going to keep giving dance my all. There’s always room for improvement still.